Baby on the Brain

So let me break it down for you. I'm 22 years old, I have been married for 2 months to my lovely husband and before that we were together for NINE years! I have wanted to have a child since I was about 17 years old. NO I DID NOT want a child because babies were the latest accessory to a teen girls wardrobe. I wanted a child because I have dreamed of being a mother since I can remember. For those of you (which I assume is MOST of you) that don't know; I was raised by my wonderful mother and her alone. She is my hero, my strength, and my best friend. She was the example I had to look to for raising a family. And she was a FINE example but it was her ALONE

Well now that I'm older and my career is starting to take shape I have had SERIOUS BOTB! I long for that unconditional love that you can only have for a child. I want someone to depend on me and love me just because! I want to change poopy diapers and wake up at the crack of dawn for 3am feedings and have PILES of laundry just covered in spit up waiting for me! I want all that and more. I want to know what my children will look like, what their interests are, who they take to prom etc.. I know I'm getting ahead of myself considering I'm not even a little bit pregnant but I can't help myself!

Zac and I have decided to wait until I am done with school before we start trying. Which is VERY smart. Thank God for Zac otherwise my life would be full of rash decisions. He's the planner and I'm the "Lets do it right now!"-er. But until then I will be lurking on various baby websites (such as thebump.com) and daydreaming about motherhood.

Also I will be trying to get myself ready for being pregnant. I have a short list of very DIFFICULT things I need to do before I can conceive. What are they you ask?

1. Quit smoking, for good!
2. Lose weight
3. Get the monstrosity that is my menstrual cycle under control
4. And finally, make sure my Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome is under control/ won't effect getting pregnant!

See short list of mucho hard stuff! Anyways that ends my looooong baby rant. THE END.